p.s.

have you ever realized all of a sudden that you have to peeps really badly? that you probably had to go peeps for a really long time? so much so that when you go to the bathroom you peeps enough to fill a swimming pool? and your bladder hurts? no? just me? ok then.

in a former life...

... i did something terrible to technology. something horridly unspeakable. & now, in this life, i'm paying for it.

there is still no wifi on elvie, & now i cannot get her dial-up to work. or perhaps she's found out my previous life's deep, dark secret, & is refusing to work properly. no internet on elvie means no printing for tomorrow's hogwarts, & no photos for you.

striking technology aside - thehobbit & i had a lovely, quiet day together. we played on the farm, worked on our 100 project ("shirts" was the final choice,) went to a thrift shop, & read a few chapters. while out back we saw baby pigeons attempting to take their first flights. neither of them actually made it off the roof, but it was fun to watch. we also harvested quite a lot of food, including the very first ever fennel. over a decade of gardening, & it still astounds me that i can plant a seed, & it will grow into what it's supposed to.

i like when thehobbit falls asleep with a lovely day still in his mind - i always hope it will result in lovely dreams. or at least ones not featuring me leaving him somewhere, & forgetting to come back for him. those always result in me having to assure him; repeatedly; in the morning that i shall not leave him somewhere, nor should he need worry i would forget to come back for him... were i lying about the first assurance.

as much as i enjoyed my day with my sweet hobbit, i'm feeling very melancholy tonight. no blahs or funks on the way... no need to worry that another woe is me post is on the horizon. i'm just in my own head tonight.

i hope your dreams tonight are lovely.

~peace.

mamas make it all better

thank you - all one of you - for putting up with my blahtitude. i slip into it every so often, & occasionaly; as you have noticed; i do not easily get out. to be honest: by the time i'm fully into the blahtitude i don't try to get out... hence the wallowing. this time the blah was in danger of morphing into a full funk, which is not something to be wallowed in. no no no.



there was something that began pulling me up through the blah, but i'd rather not discuss that. suffice it to say i see things more clearly. the main hoisting up through the blahmurk, & back into normalcy (ha!) happened last night. paper & soap took me for a belated birthday dinner, then we went to our usual wednesday nee tuesday coffee shop for crafting. the oh so lovely bhan joined us, & we crafted/chatted into the night. mamas make it all better, just by being themselves... & by not requiring me to be anything other than i am at any given moment.

today thehobbit & i are staying home specifically to spend the day together. we'll be working on 100 somethings. paper's post explains the project. thehobbit has no interest in making 100 dresses, so we're not yet sure what our somethings shall be. we are considering 100 gnomies made from magazine pages.

for now thehobbit is playing quietly without me. mmmmm quiet mornings are the best! he has a container of sand to which he's added half a bottle of iron filings. there are teeny animals in the sand, but those don't appear to be for anything other than chatting with. basically he's using magnets to find all the iron. did you do this at at the beach and/or park when you were little? i did, & thought it was the greatest of fun. kids are so easy to entertain.

have a lovely, peaceful, unblahtitude day!

~peace.

a blah day

first no wireless on elvie, then all day without wireless on delilah! i know it's not the end of the world; except that it is; but i specifically cancelled today's craft/book gig so i could get work done. i thought i'd do that grownieup thing where one stops watching youtube, & looking for new blogs to love, & actually does the work one has promised. still no wireless on elvie by the way, & i have no idea why.

i've been trying to play catch-up the last few days. it's slow going, but i'm getting things marked off the to-do list. the downside to getting caught up is that i've had no time for crafting or sewing. blah. i wish i had hermione's time turner, so i could get all my to-dos to-done, then go back & play.

today has been such a strange day. we cancelled our usual outing, i couldn't work without the wireless, a childhood friend emailed that her mother passed away on friday, it's manlyman's dad's 5th deathday, it was really cold outside, & i just feel out of sorts. how is that for complaining? not enough? want a little more? well it's tuesday night, & i'm not at my favorite coffee house, crafting with my mamas. i should not complain about that - we switched to wednesdays. it's not like i shall have no crafting this week... i'm just pouting because i want to be there nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

a friend once told me that when i start letting negatives overwhelm me, i should purposely list a bunch of positives. something about refocusing my mind, blah, blah, blah. i know i should do this. i know it would work. i have no intention of doing such. i feel the need to wallow in my blahness.

wallow with me!!!! but first watch this. it's our new theme song for mama tuesdays wednesdays. there is a cute coffee guy at our coffee house :-)

ok now we wallow.
~peace.